Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Fit Body Boot Camp is...


Fit Body Camp is Awesome!  Day 3 of the 28 day challenge and I've been caffeine free for 3 days.  No processed food for 3 days and have been eating clean.  It's pretty similar to the Whole 30 program.  To the left is my yummy dinner from yesterday which was a turkey burger with grilled onions, cauliflower rice, and spring mix salad.  Below are turkey tenderloins with squash/zuchinni with a salad.

The workouts are fast paced but good.  There's a huge amount of support when you are working out.  Today there were two coworkers there and a friend.  Chris had a last minute meeting so he went to the 5:30 meeting.  I'm sore as all heck but I know I'm doing good!

Tomorrow, lacrosse starts for the kid.  It goes from 5:45 - 7:15 so I cooked tomorrow's dinner tonight so that we will be set up for success.

Fit Body Bootcamp Challenge...day 0

I'm getting back on the band wagon.  My coworkers have been extremely successful with Fit Body Bootcamp.   Fit Body Bootcamp is like Curves but no machines, just weights and some equipment.  It's 30 minutes total so you are in and out. I start on the 20th of March. I've been watching my coworkers lose a ton of weight since August.  One coworker lost 50 pounds and even one who is extremely fit lost 10 plus she is getting ripped.  I've wanted to join but I didn't get my motivation until recently because it was impossible to put this first.  I signed up for the little black dress challenge that is a 28 day program.  Chris and our friend signed to try the place out on a groupon deal so we will see what happens!

The interesting thing about my body, it's clung to about the same weight for the past six years.  I did go down when I got sick with my embolism last year but it went back up slowly,  I packed on a few pounds around Christmas time where I went from 215-222 quickly.  I don't know what happened but I gained quickly.  I started swimming again for about 3 weeks and I grew frustrated about the gain.  I ended up hovering about 225 after that, which totally sucked.  Eating wise...well...been eating out a little too much so I am welcoming the change and the challenge.

Life has been awesome in some areas and a bummer in others.  The bad: we had to put our cat to sleep a few weeks back.  He was slowly getting worse since fall and we found out the week of his death after doing multiple tests that he had cancer.  I loved that cat so much.  I also found out that my uncle is dying of liver cancer so this stuff has weighed heavily on me for the past few months.  The good: the kid is doing well in kindergarten.  We love the school and it was the best choice ever to send him to the school.  He has 12 in his class and the teacher is amazing.  We adore her.  Chris is on the PTO so it's nice to be involved.  We are also keeping busy with sports for the kid.  He's in lacrosse, soccer, tball, and hockey. Luckily the hockey season just ended but lacrosse, soccer, and tball will keep us busy.  He really enjoys doing it and it's entertaining to watch.  Work is awesome.  I love being a school social worker.  It's the best job....EVER...I love my team of coworkers.  They are the best.




Tuesday, November 24, 2015

I have to stop asking the universe certain things...

It's been one heck of a month.  Things were flowing since getting my new school job.  I was dropping the pounds naturally, working out 5x per week, and had a great steady pace.  That was until the middle of last month.  I got a virus...one of those horrible upper respiratory viruses that just stuck.  Then two weeks later, I got a flu shot.  Not exactly the smartest thing to do is to get a flu shot while your immune system is struggling. Then week three of sickness hits.  I'm not getting any better, in fact, I'm getting worse.  No energy, horrible cough for three weeks so I hit urgent care...20 minutes before close on Halloween.  Not a good idea either...dx was upper respiratory and I was prescribed cough medicine.  Then I do something extremely stupid, which was taking kid out in rain for Halloween where I get totally soaked.  Two days later, I'm back in urgent care...dx bronchitis and placed on antibiotics, inhaler, and jacked up cough medicine that made me manic.  That week is horrible...I'm barely functioning.  I somehow manage to make it 75% of the week at work.  Mind you, that I'm rarely sick, I haven't used a sick day since 2001.  I get worse but I push through because I have some school meetings and some IEPs, I need to be there.  Then, Chris goes out to training to Chicago for work and luckily my parents come down to help.  I continue to struggle so I go to urgent care once again because I'm in horrible pain from my rib where I was coughing too much.  DX, rib contusion...next night, I wake up with a pounding heart where it was jumping out of my chest.  Blood pressure is 177/110.  I can't calm down, I'm radiating pain in my chest in a different area.  I try to focus for an hour and continue to struggle.  I start goggling...I know, it's not necessarily good to do that at all but I do.  My symptoms match blood clot but I'm still convinced it was a super bad panic attack but then I figure WTH, just go in to the ER.   I have insurance, I just need to go. I left the house while my parents and kid were sleeping, I didn't tell them where I was going. I go in to the ER, get seen fairly quickly.  Give the symptoms plus explain that I have major hx anxiety.  Doctor listens so he has me do some xrays.  Everything looks good but vitals are still horrible.  Then he has me in for a cat scan.  They hit me with some morphine and fluids.  Morphine is totally whacked...never felt that feeling before.  I have no clue why someone would want to get high off it because that feeling is not fun when it hits your body.  I wait, wait, wait.  Three hours after the cat scan, doctor comes in.  I have a small pulmonary embolism in my right lung.  Shit, there was something wrong with me.  I call Chris for him to come home, left a message for my parents, texted my principal and sister.  My parents thought that I was at school until my sister got a hold of them.   I was admitted to the medical floor after having a heparin drip.  First doctor scares the crap out of me, I was told that I'm needing to take a blood thinner for 6 months and that I will not be able to be active at all.  All I can do is go to work and that's it.  Okay...scared...I'm non stop.  Then I'm in there for 1.5 days.  Discharge doctor clarifies that it's a small blood clot and she's not too sure how it got there because I had a clean ultrasound for my legs, no DVT.  She notes that I can go back to exercising and not too worry about limiting activity, which is much better.  I get linked up with a doctor down here as my old doctor retired in Grand Rapids.  He reports just like the second doctor that I'm okay to exercise.  He cannot explain the PE but reports that I should be off the meds in 3 months.  Then we discussed my weight and he was cool about it but we are going to get it down.  I'm going in for testing for anemia and tests to see if I have the genetics that may effect clotting issues plus he hooked me up with a mammogram...happy 40th birthday to me.  So what a month, super scary but I'm happy that I am okay.  I'll be off the meds hopefully soon but whosh...I don't ever want to go through that again.  I asked the universe a few months back for a wake up call for my hx, I guess I got it.

Things are still going amazing at work.  I love my job.  School social work is the best.  We work hard and put 12 months of work into 10 but it's the most rewarding job ever.  I'm blessed.  Kid and I had a wonderful summer.  It was simply amazing between spending the summer at the beach, air zoo, nature center, and library.

The kid is going to school next year...I can't believe it.  Looking around at the local school, they are cramming in 26-30 kids in a classroom with no para-support.  It's supposed to be the best school in there area, but heck, I'm not drinking that Koo laid.  Hum....no thanks, 26-30 is INSANE for a kindergarten classroom.  After some looking, we found a private STEAM (Science, Technology, Engineering, Arts, Math) that we plan on sending him to.   They get gym 4x per week, Spanish 4x per week, and Art 2x/Music2x.  Plus they have robotics, which is a major plus.   Chris is really passionate about the school especially since he has found his new passion at work with programing and he would like to give the kid every opportunity for exposure that he can get.  Chris got this massive promotion last spring to be in analytics at his company and he has been programming/automating across the whole company enterprise, so needless to say, he found his passion.  Since we set this goal a few months back, we have been aggressively saving money each week so the kid can attend there.   I was wondering last week how we were not going to have to dip into savings/keep the same savings schedule going but again....the universe answered my question by giving me a heck of a long on call shift so Christmas is on my old job :)  I so have to stop asking the universe things because I might not want to go through the situation.

Here's to health...and off of meds in 2.5 months.

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Things are settling in....

Wow, my new life is amazing.  It feels so good to say this.  The new job is terrific.  Couldn't be happier.  I am fortunate to have some awesome team members and some great kids that I get to work with.  Life is good!  It's been a long time since I have been truly able to utter those words.

I went from a very sedentary job to an active job.  To walk from one end of the building to the other side is about .25 round trip so I'm ranking in the miles.  I started back on the gym Saturday so I'm finding my groove again.

In slimming down the life style, I did cancel WW.  I'm going to try spark people to log my calories.  I can't justify $42.95 any more because I haven't been going to the meetings.  So we will see where it goes.  WW will always be there.  It's not the only tool out there.  Plus, carving out an hour on the weekend in the afternoon has been tough.  I just want to hang with Chris and the kid.  

So here's to a good flow again.  I have hope!

Thursday, December 25, 2014

New job, new life?

January 5th, I start my new job.  It's 5 minutes from home...yes, 5 minutes from home.  Hours are 7:45 - 3:45 but best of all summers off!  Yes summers off!!!  I never ever have to work about daycare in the summer.  I'll continue to do some part time work with my current work place but oh my goodness, life is only going to change for the better.  Chris is up for a massive promotion in his department too so it's looking awesome on all fronts.  It's been quite a while since I've felt that life is finally heading in the direction that we would like it too.  It's going to be an awesome 2015!

Saturday, December 06, 2014

Just a little patience...

It's been four years since we knew that things were going to change in our life.  I was pregnant with the little guy and we found out that Chris's job was going to be transferred within two years.  Knowing that we were going to have to switch up everything was...well not fun.  I have trouble embracing change.  In my mind, I want to keep everything the same.  I knew what I wanted my life to be like.  We would live in our Grand Rapids house forever.  I would work at my old job.  Chris would still be at his job.  And we would fit the kid in there somewhere but that's not how it worked out to be.  We had to make a choice and driving back on christmas day 2011, I knew I did not want my husband to be stuck in a car pool 5x a week going down from Grand Rapids to Kalamazoo.  I knew then I would have to push my comfort zone and embrace the idea of moving.  Unfortunately, I never really embraced what was happening.


The last few years have been interesting.  I sometimes look at my life and feel like the Talking Heads song "Once in a Lifetime".  Especially in the lyrics part of "And you may ask yourself What is that beautiful house? And you may ask yourself Where does that highway go to?  And you may ask yourself Am I right?...Am I wrong? And you may say to yourself yourself My God!...What have I done?! "  


Which is true because there are times that I had to sit back and go "whose life is this because it's not feeling like mine".  It's not felt like mine really especially the last two years.   Like "this is not really my house...this is not really my life".  I kept wanting to wake up and hope it was a dream.  I grabbed a job that was very eye opening.  I knew I didn't follow my gut and I totally screwed myself.  Then I got into my present position.  I knew it was going to be okay but I didn't know for how long.  I had to learn to look at my life instead of a whole picture like I usually do to looking at my life with just blinders.  Then last week, an opportunity fell on my lap that is still blowing my mind.  Our whole life is going to change for the better.  Blinders off and I'm seeing the whole picture...and I can't be more excited.

Life is going to be amazing again...and I can't wait...and it's taken just a bit of patience :)


Wednesday, October 08, 2014

Things are settling down...

Things are finally settling down.  I'm no longer a contract worker, which is freaking awesome.  I never realized how much that was bothering me until recently.  I was told that I would have a position post 10/1 but I'm not trusting so I worried a lot more than I should have.  Even though regular employment has a "false sense of security", I wanted that...and I didn't have it until last week.  I'm permanent and I got the salary adjustment that I was looking for.  Needless to say, I'm feeling better about the job.  There's supposed to be bigger things in store for me during the next few months so I will wait and see...but not hold my breath!

Tonight, I hit the basement.  It's been several months since I have been down there.  There's a ton of boxes from our old house that need to be unpacked.  It's been two years and every time I go down there, I run back upstairs because it's way too overwhelming.  Determined to find my pumpkin patch that I know is down there, I started peeking.  I didn't run and I've come to the conclusion, that it's got to be organized and stuff needs to be either be used, donated, or tossed.  Eventually, we are going to want to finish that off so it needs to happen.  Hopefully over the next few months, we'll get it done.  I didn't find my pumpkin patch but I did find my vintage jewelry, old picture, and postcard album that I thought I lost so it was good.  The one good thing is I love the feeling of "Oh, I remember I got that....".

Went back to WW a few weeks back.  I'm doing the filling foods option and so far so good.  The meeting is smaller and everyone seems to be nice.  We'll see how it goes but I had to do something :)

Thursday, September 04, 2014

My little guy is 3.5 years old :)

My little man is 3.5 years old :) He is so smart and spunky it blows my mind some times (and tries my patience at times).  He is so tall and looks older that it's hard to believe he is only 3.5...which can be a blessing but a curse as well because when people interact with him, they think he's older.  We had a great labor day weekend.  We were supposed to hit Warren Dunes State park over the labor day weekend but weather was iffy so we decided to hotel it and hit Chicago.  It was a must needed trip as I was totally crispy fried from a horrible oncall night so we needed a guaranteed good weekend.  Besides the hotel being arg (we will never stay at the Palmer House again...ever) it was amazing.  We took the kid to the Lincoln Park zoo and let him climb all over the childrens area.  We also hit up the children's museum on Navy Pier which was totally utopia for children.  They have this cool ship where the kids can climb from one floor to the next.  The kid was in heaven.  So needless to say, fun times were had by all in our family.

I'm battling some burnout from work....I'm tired.  I've been stretched thin for the past month since we are so bare bones.  Luckily, it went back to normal this week but I've essentially been in hiding at my office and nose to the grind stone until I get caught up.  I've had to cover 3 other co-workers jobs so it's been tiring.  I'm grateful that I'm getting this break but I know the surge will be coming soon again.  We have two days next week off for a get away so hopefully it will be restful and not stressful that I took a few days off.  Our vacation time this past summer was off because Chris had trial.  I can honestly feel that I'm due for a decent break.  Self care and time off can be hard in my life of work...I'm trying...and I'm looking forward for some days to regroup.

I'm in love with both of these dresses.  I really am.  I've been really good about not buying anything from GB but I was so tempted to buy both of them.  It was hard to send it back.  But I did and I'm sure I will get another cute one in it's place :)  The one thing I love is getting out of my comfort zone and trying something new.